One of the challenges I have to still over come is being in foster care. My parents never want to talk to me unless they want to balme something on me like they don’t have enough money, or I made the family fall apart. I think it’s harder for me to want to see them because I think it’s unfair for them to put it on the kid when its really not there fault. I think that if they want to put the blame on someone it should be them because they were the ones that couldn’t take care of me in the first place. I think that its gotta be just as hard on my parents as it is on me. Well I guess the plus side is I get to spend all Saturday with my real parents. Except the only way I get to go over there is to clean all the house that I don’t even live in.

Jess

My new life
So I have been in this new home for two weeks today. It has been ok so far,
I really wish I was still there. I don’t really fit in they are more high class and all they do is lay around. I really am starting to miss being home even if it wasn’t perfect. I guess it hits you in the butt how good life is when you live at home.

Jess

Cell Phones

Cell phones should be banded from schools. They are very distracting. Students can cheat. And cell phones also can be disrespectful or can be stolen.

First cell phones can be used for cheating. It could be used a calculator. Students can also text answers for a test or quiz. Or students can take pictures of the answer sheet.

Also cell phones can be a distraction. Students can get online and shop for games, clothes or ring tones. Students can text someone else in that class or in another class. Students can take pictures.

Some people want cell phones in school for emergencies. Some caseworkers like to be in touch with their kids and let them be involved. I think it’s also good to have it in case you need to get a hold of someone last minute.

Jess

So on January 21, I went to a play its called Room Service with the school. It was really funny. I sat by Kirra and Ty, and we got into trouble for whispering. So at like intermission the people in front of us were all like “can you please not whisper when the play is on because we can hear it and it’s annoying.” I was like ok whatever crazy person. So like I’m kinda glad I went I got to get away from all the drama at home, and I got away with not doing homework. So I got to the play and it was crazy, it was way to many people there. So the play was like bout this play writer making this play for these people, and how they don’t have enough money and how they kind of struggle to make ends meet. So after the play all the cast was out there, and I got to meet them and it was really cool it sounded like they enjoy what they are doing.

Jess

So I don’t feel like writing about the subject, so I decided to just go with what’s on my mind. So I have come to a conclusion this week: I hate men and I want then to just disappear because they cause to much DRAMA and HEARTACHE. It’s so not fair when you trust a guy enough to give them love, trust, and even sometimes your heart, and they take it through it in the ground and step on it. I think they need to have more respect for women and not cheat on them and then they think that the women won’t ever find out.
Not always true, it makes me so mad I trusted this guy and he just didn’t care and straight up cheated on me in font of me with me best friend… JURK!!! I’m Sorry to all the guys that aren’t players and that don’t cheat. This isn’t to you guys.

Jess

My New Life…

On Monday I went to court and I got put into foster care. I had to tell my mom goodbye along with my little brother and dad. I was in tears the whole time. I realized that might have been my last time with my family. It has been hard and I miss them. Before court my first foster home fell through. My caseworker had to take me back to Vantage Point until we could find a placement for me.

After court I was in tears I felt like I could just die and it wouldn’t make a difference to anyone. I got checked into Vantage Point again. Then my caseworker called me and told me that they might have found me a new placement, and they would come talk to me. Later that night my foster parents came to talk to me and see if they wanted to take me home. They came and talked for what seems like forever and decided that they would ask my foster brother and sister what they thought.

Within an hour they decided they wanted me. They told me that they wanted to have me go home with them and they wanted to keep me as a foster sister. After that we went to IHOP for dinner, as a family. I went home and we sat up my room it was the funniest thing I have ever seen: my bed kept falling apart and it was the funniest thing ever. I got to sleep around 11 and I was up by 5:45. It was really odd at first I wasn’t sure what to do or how to act. I came to school and I felt like I was at home everybody was talking to me. Since then I have been there and things are going great and I’m glad I was taken in by them. I have a cell phone, my own room, and they take me out and do stuff for me.

But I will always have one home and its here with all of my friends and my support at SUMMIT!!!


Jess

I think Halloween is a good holiday. People benefit from this because they get to have a chance to have fun and be who they want to be just for a moment. I think the negative part of Halloween is lots of kids like to act like little thugs and take the younger kids candy. I think that a mask is a way for that person to be who they think they are and not to care what other people think of them. My least favorite part of Halloween would be last year because these really weird scary lookin’ guys chased me and my friend for like 3 or 4 blocks before my friend tripped and got hurt. By that point, they decided to leave us alone. This year for Halloween I’m being an 80’s punk rocker chick. I’m so excited! I’m going to my uncle’s house and we are doing my little baby cousins first Halloween… yaya!!!!

Jess

Okay so Thursday after school Tyler came over to my house. It was so much fun he did my make up and hair. I looked hella sexy. It didn’t look like me at all. He met some of my really good friends. He is a freakin’ amazing make up artist and he does really freakin’ amazing hair styles. I love how he doesn’t care what others say bout his make up. Anyways we were doing my hair in the bathroom and my mom came in there and screamed BOO!!!! And it made the both of us screamed hella loud. It was hella funny. And that boy can dance let me just tell you. He rolls his hips like no tomorrow and that boys can sing. So my parents embarrassed my like hella bad. Then we went downstairs and just kicked it the rest of the night. It was the best night I have ever had with a guy. I can’t wait till the next night I get to kick it with him.

Fear

What I am afraid of is dying from a broken heart. The reason I have a fear of dying from a broken heart is because I know people who have killed themselves over love. I have been in love two times and both times I thought I was going to die after it was over.
I think this has a negative effect on my life because I don’t let anyone in my life get to close.

I think that if I left someone close enough that ill get hurt. I know that it was said ‘Tis better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all” that was said by Shakespeare. I think that these are wise words because I think that its true I would rather love someone and have a few broken hearts then to have never loved anyone at all then to not know that is out there. I loved someone who broke my heart everybody told me to be careful and that I didn’t now what love was. The truth is I know what my meaning of love is and ill never let anyone tell me different.

Jess

Leader

A leader to me is some one who other’s can look up to. It’s some one who you can go to and ask for help with a problem or just someone to listen to you. I think that Kesha is a good example of a leader. For example I had a problem and she sat there and helped me out and let me cry on her shoulder with out complaint. She has done this more then once. I think that anyone who wants younger people to look up to them watch and learn from her because she will never give up on you. She is someone who I can see being a great leader. I think that teachers here and stuff in general are great leaders. Because when you have a goal or something you are striving for they like to help you reach it. I think that more schools should have staff like this. I think that Tia is also an amazing leader. Because if you need to talk to someone or just need a shoulder to cry on she is there with out question and she will sit there till she knows that you are ok and that you can make it. A leader is some one that when you are down or feeling blue can just come up and give you a hug and make you smile.

Jess

Funniest Thing

The funniest thing that I have ever done is me and my friend Alyssa were hanging out before I went to St. George and we decided that we wanted to decorate her “Ghetto paper” which is like brown paper bag and its like their blinds. We like to write how we feel and just random stuff on it. When we go to collage the both of us are taking each others half of each others “ghetto paper and take it with us. Instead we ended up having a marker war we wrote all over reach other stuff like hot mama, lick it like a lolli pop… stuff like that. That was the best later that night we watched Sweeney Todd and got the crap scared out of us. In one part in the movie he kills everybody that come into his shop and there is tons and tons of blood. We started to freak out and were trying to stop the movie but couldn’t find the remote and then we messed up the DVD player. I think in that one night we drank a bunch of soda ate ice cream and then tons and tons of snacks. That was the best night of my life and we are trying to keep toping that night and as of right know we haven’t had any success yet.

Jess

Don't believe in Love

I don’t believe in love. It’s DUMB and USELESS. I think that it’s a complete WAIST of TIME and HEARTACHE!!!!!!!!! I think any girl that is in “LOVE” will get HURT and eventually STOP loving guys and will NEVER get married or anything. DON’T say it until YOU are for sure that’s how YOU feel. I can tell you from my own experience that it really does SUCKS when YOU tell a guy that you love them and all they say is “ OK” it’s the same as saying THANK YOU after a kiss that makes the girl have SECOND thoughts on WHY they are even together. If a guy is going to be with a girl then they either say “I love u” back or say “this is to fast for me can we slow it down” but don’t ever just say “OK”. I know that most people will read this and say well that’s not always the case with guy some times it’s the girls that act that way and if that is the case then they have no room to day anything when a guy says it to them.

I know that if the guy I’m with says “OK” one more time I think I am going to freak out major time because that make me think “ WHY is he with me is it out of PITTY or because he WANTS to be with me?” maybe its just me who knows. So if you were to ask any man in a relationship MOST guys would say they were doing it because they feel bad because no body likes them like that. So when you are with a girl you need to tell them that you don’t love them but you want to be with them or you love them DON’T string them along and make them believe in your stupid games and same for the girls.

Jess

Trust

Trust

Someone who I think shows respect and has something that they want to accomplish is my dad. Because he doesn’t bullshit you he will tell you the truth whether you want to hear it or not. I think that this is someone who respects themselves and others. Some body who I think isn’t honest is my uncle Steven because he doesn’t want to understand or doesn’t want to understand. He needs to learn how to think outside of the box because other wise he will pretend like there’s nothing wrong and everything is going to be perfect.

Jess